At the Shore

We are on vacation, the family and I. The immediate family is here, day in and day out, laughing, arguing, laughing some more. It's a good and marvelous thing. One I've missed for a while. But isn't vacation supposed to be a balm to the soul?

Anyway, the place we rented, and if you don't know this about renting at the shore--you go down in the depths of winter looking for a place you might like in the swelter of summer--doesn't have central air conditioning and we are in the midst of one of the hottest summers on record. We thought the place looked original and quaint. And it did and it is. But on those 100+ days, a little better than window units would have been helpful. The breeze is jumping today,though, and the humidity is low, so it's a good place. Yesterday at the sandy gateway to the ocean, the breezes blew, the sun, when it peeked out of the clouds was hot and the water was cool enough to make you suck in your stomach, not to impress anyone, but because the initial shock felt great if surprising. I sat on my beach chair and opening my senses to what I could smell and hear and these are my observations. The smell of sunscreen is no longer fruit scented. When did that happen? But the ocean still smells salty, of course. The sounds though, well, it's different now with hearing aids. I leaned my head back on the chair, closed my eyes and really listened. The roar of the ocean waves rumbles through everything. The laughing gulls pierce the air with their insolent cries. I can't distinguish conversations anymore, just register the fact that people are talking around me. Which doesn't bother me all that much. I don't need to hear the family drama or teen angst taking place next to me. But oh, the joy to hear the casual conversation between the brother and sister in our family who are separated by a continent, that would be wonderful. As well as the funny observations from the daughter's boyfriend or hubby. I really don't miss being able to submerge myself under the waves, I never was one much for that, but I have to be careful how wet I get or decide simply to cool off and leave the "ears" back on the blanket, swathed in cotton and plastic, lest they got sand in their mechanisms. It's just not worth it, so getting wet from the waist down it is, so I can hear calls to me to turn around to get my picture taken or listen as the lady next to me tells of the visit of the dolphins on the one day I didn't go to the beach.

It's a different experience this year. One I'm grateful for and dubious of at the same time. But all the same, we are here, at the shore.